Wednesday, December 3, 2008

What to do, then?

Learn.

First, learn to forget. Forget that you were ever a master. Forget everything you have ever known. Nothing is wrong with your cherished instrument, and nothing is wrong with you. It is simply something different from what you have known before. To know it, you must forget the rest. Forget.

Now, learn it. Learn it as a child learns language, or movement. Learn from the beginning, from the places so novice that you have long since forgotten they exist. Let those places be your new home for a while. Let your prize teach you. Ask it to teach you. Learn how to ask it.

Easy, right? If not, at least it is a path of hope, superior to all other alternatives. A discovery.

9 comments:

  1. did you recently discover this or are you reading a philosophy book?

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  2. I'm discovering it through the process of writing about it. Did you read the little series? Beginning, middle, and end. Or at least, a new beginning, if not a true end. Journaling is good. :D

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  3. the little series? i don't think i've heard of it. i found out on that lame show "House" last night that snoring is sleep apnea that can lead to brain damage. I blame that.

    i'm thinking, hmmmm... (1) what have i ever been really good at, (2) what challenge has been new and un-master-able to me that used to come naturally, and (3) how to forget that i ever had that talent in the first place.

    ... well, i think i got stumped at #1. what's your unmasterable instrument?

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  4. Oh, my bad. By "series" I meant just my last 3 related posts. The instrument, and the challenge, don't matter. What matters is the process! ;) I'll text you LOL

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  5. Also, you shouldn't get stumped at number one. How many times have you thought, "Well, the old Kristen would've...."? Everyone has lots of talents, especially you :), and everyone loses sight of how to best express those talents over time, don't they? I actually copied all this out of my private blog because I thought it might be thought-provoking for someone else. Hope it's somehow useful. Maybe your step 3 is completely different than mine!

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  6. true about the old kristen thing... but then there are also parts of the old kristen that make me cringe. i guess it's all a give-and-take. thanks for copying this from your physical journal - it's a good brain exercise i think. we have to correct our life path/choices so often in life, i'm realizing. it's not just about deciding something and changing, i feel like a new person every 2 years or so. anyway, i'm reading the comments on the funnyordie video - some good bible ones. maybe that's my instrument - i can't talk about space god with my girlfriend :)

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  7. Heh, I'd say that's more of a challenge.... The instrument, for example, might be a transcendent spiritual awareness that you may have trained yourself to deny due to bitterness with religion and the people who shove it down our throats? I dunno, just drawing the simile. :) Perhaps step 3 could be something like exploring a spiritual common ground between you... If you draw the strokes broadly enough, it must exist somewhere? Hee, now it just sounds like I'm recruiting for the UUs. That way, you guys can "worship" together, where even the atheists and the Christians sit in the same pews LOL.
    Blah blah blah. Cofffeeeeeee. I love our tripartite conversation btw (my blog, your blog, texts). So 21st century.

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  8. This is fun. I'm all in analytical mode!

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  9. 5 more minutes until i sneak past my boss's office hoping that he has left already so i don't have to say goodbye (yes, my job is to greet him although he doesn't bother to tell me hello or goodbye - not even in response to me saying it!) but anyway, you drew that smile alright. what will i do with this gutful of bitter resentment towards goddies if i were to find a spiritual side? as i get older, it seems less and less likely. i'm no longer a believer in ghosts even! maybe i need myself a good haunted house to kick off the fears... to kick off the spiritual side that says, "if this exists, then this does too" kinda thing. i hope you have a good night, my 21st century hand-holder!

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